Happyness.

I was watching The Pursuit of Happyness tonight, and I really started to think about the title of this movie. It's talked about briefly, the main character says "I started thinking about Thomas Jefferson on the Declaration of Independence and the part about our right to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. And I remember thinking how did he know to put the pursuit part in there? That maybe happiness is something that we can only pursue and maybe we can actually never have it. No matter what. How did he know that?" All I was able to think of is exactly what was said in the movie. Is happiness something we can only pursue? Is it possible for us to be truly happy? We are always wanting for something, whether it's something insignificant such as...something to do today, or something hugely significant to us. Regardless of the significance of the want, the want is still there. Is it possible not to want? To be truly content?

I'm sure that when I was a child, I was content and happy. I don't know many kids that aren't. If only we had all listened to Taylor Swift and 'Never Grown up.' I know that in all of these that I find a way to bring up children. It's probably because I spend a lot of time with them, and partly because I truly envy them. They know the secret to true happiness, they don't have to pursue. I think we all knew it at one point.... we just... grew up and forgot how to be happy, forgot how to be content.

I can't really remember the last time that I was truly content. Truly happy. Maybe it's in our nature to constantly yearn and strive and want. Or perhaps it's something that we eventually grow out of. I'm not sure, I don't have any more answers than you do. I'd like to think that it is possible to be happy.

Patience.

     I finished reading Tim Tebow's autobiography tonight. I took a lot of things away from this book and I would really recommend it to anyone out there looking for a good book to read. You should probably like sports if you're going to read this book, but there is a heck of a lot more to it than just sports. After I was finished reading it, for the rest of the night I had one bible verse, and consequently one song that I just couldn't seem to get out of my head. The verse was Isaiah 40:31 which goes like this: "Those who wait for the Lord will gain new strength; they will mount up with tinges like eagles, they will run and not get tired, they will walk and not become weary." The song is called Everlasting God, and the specific part of the song that was stuck in my head was the beginning. It said "Strength will rise as we wait upon the Lord, we will wait upon the Lord, we will wait upon the Lord."

     Now for those of you that haven't quite picked up whats weighing on my heart right now, I'll make it crystal clear. Patience. Waiting upon the lord. For what? I cannot say right now. I believe the message was patience, and trusting your troubles and cares, your triumphs and disappointments with Him. Something that I have been struggling with not only lately, but just in general. It's a very important thing to remember though.

     You would think that if we took a look at all of the things that we have been blessed with, and all of the things the he has done since the beginning of time that would be an easy thing to do. We should get that his timing is perfect and that should make it easier to wait even though we may not understand why, just knowing that everything He does is for our benefit should be enough. It's easy to reflect back after whatever we were impatient for has already happened and say that. Trusting in his timing in the moment is the more difficult, but ultimately more important task. I guess what I'm getting at here is the importance of patience and that I'm trying to work on it. Apologies to those who I've been impatient with, forgive me please.