Easy

     I am still undecided as to whether or not I will even post this entry, or any to come after this one. The thought of leaving my thoughts out here on the internet for people to read and judge is actually slightly terrifying for me. What if they think I'm weird, what if people start to look at me differently because of the way I think or the things that I am writing. There's no easy answer to any of these questions, just as there is no easy answer for anything in life that truly terrifies us.

     I wanted to write this about events in my life that are far from easy. I'm not talking about physical issues, nor am I writing about intellectual roadblocks such as passing a class or understanding a subject. I'm writing about one of the hardest things in life(in my opinion) to manage, emotions and relationships.

     Truth be told, I think that life would be a HECK of a lot easier without such things. I hear a lot of people complain about the relationships that they are in, or the things that they have to do for someone else, whether it is getting them a present for a holiday or something much simpler such as grabbing them a drink from the cub. Which leads me to ask the following, If it is so difficult and you hate it so much, why do you choose to be in a relationship in the first place? I think the answer lies in our emotions as well as our need to fit in.

     You see, it is human nature to complain about such things, it gives us something to talk about with one another, a way to relate.  However that aside, I believe the most important reason we choose to enter into relationships is this; With the right person, everything else in life seems that much sweeter. Yes, life might be a little easier without things such as emotions and relationships, but I don't believe that life would be as worthwhile. I also believe that sometimes we are afraid to try new things because we have grown comfortable with what we know and what's easy. Rather than venture forth into a new relationship, we cling to the old because it's what we've always known.

Nothing in this life that is worth it is easy. Sometimes you must be strong simply because you have no other choice. Letting go is never easy. Sometimes the hardest thing you've ever had to do, is the right thing, even if it means you're not happy with things right now, and sometimes....sometimes putting someones happiness above your own means that that person isn't in your life anymore, but that doesn't mean that you care about them any less, you just want what's best for them. I have never prayed for an easy life, I simply ask for the strength to endure what has been laid before me.